5...0... just a number...

that's what people keep saying to me! It has a dreadful feeling/sound about it... Like life is more than 1/2 done. (My Gramp will be 99 in July and still lives and drives on his own!) This 50th birthday I just tried not to celebrate, is pretty tough. I'm asking myself, "Have you done it well?... only for Christ so that it will last?"

I know things in my life that look "Christ-like" but when thinking what I did and do that aren't, it gets ya in the heart! This reflecting is a normal part of growing old, almost as if I'm seeing my life pass by as watching a race in slow-motion. Dan continually reminds me there is no living in regret (a genetic trait I fight against.) But as I sit and do life in the same routine ways of teaching my children every day with still many more to go, the weariness gets the best of me if I don't look at God's Promises.

Yesterday while doing Bible & Anatomy with my lambs, (Oh - Apologia Anatomy ROCKS! ) completing our study of the eye, Psalm 32:8 was I will instruct you and teach you in the way your should go; I will guide you with My eye.

How awesome to think that God has been seeing my life pass before His eye! Oh He is so Faithful!
Thank You, God, for keeping your eyes on my comings and goings... my doings and wanderings that have kept me safe & secure from myself! Your Vision is so much clearer and knowing You are watching over me, baffles my tiny finite vision! Oh You are Good!